This is me

So this is me the one and only Sara. I am 32 years old and have a loving family that I talk about it an earlier post. I have realized I never put my own face on my blog, so here it is. Nothing special just me. What can I say about myself? I am on a journey to find myself. I have lost who I really am. Yes I am momma. Yes I am a wife. Yes I am a daughter. I am so much more than that. I am Sara. She is hidden in there somewhere. Fun loving, not so serious all the time. I always care about what others think but I forget to care about what I think. I try to please everyone but myself. I need to stop that. I need to find peace in myself. I need to learn to be comfortable in my own skin. I nee to take responsibility for myself. I will one day find me again. I try to find me everyday.. I know Sara is in there somewhere behind the anxiety, and worry. I will, I am going to get there with God's help. 

Getting back into swing of things

I haven't posted in a long time. I have almost forgot I had this blog.....shame on me!!

I have fell out of routines and I feel the difference. Things don't run like they used to. It is cluttered again. I have to get back to the swing of it. I had routines for myself that seemed to work. I had everything worked out where the house was presentable all the time.  I am not happy feeling like the house is a mess. I feel as though I fail my husband and kids regularly. I refuse to feel this way anymore. I am starting in the morning with a new outlook, with new routines, and I refuse to give up. 

God knows my struggles with energy and motivation. I have to be my own motivation. I have girls I am raising and they need to know what their job is. They will never know how to be a blessing to their husbands if I am not being a blessing to mine. I have Got to get my daily bible reading in, and get dressed to shoes, fix my hair, make my bed, get my day going even if my day is going to be spent at home for the day. I can do this and I will do this. 

Pray for me!!

It's been awhile

It's been awhile since I have posted on this thing so here goes nothing.
I've been slacking on my routines and not keeping up with the house like I should. Trinity started school today her 1st day in the 1st grade. It seem that I am going to get back into my routines easier than I expected. Tomorrow I plan on getting up and getting Trinity to school then I am going to get start instead of sitting down and letting myself be tired. I haven't been getting up at 6am all summer so my body is telling me I need more sleep but I have been going to bed on time to get back into it. I hope that I can get everthing in order and keep it that way. I have the overwhelmed feeling when I look around, but I know that I can overcome that feeling easily. I am going to be doing several pamper missions this week so I can ease myself in to the work again. So, Here Goes Nothing!!!!!

Being Discouraged

I figured out what being discouraged really felt like today. From the time I got up this morning I felt like all the work I have been doing was pointless. Especially when I actually paid attention to the Kitchen. I have to start all over in that room. Starting with shining the sink, I unloaded and loaded the dishwasher. That's about as far as I had gotten today. The Kids Didn't get to see their daddy yesterday and all day today. I think that had something to do with they way they were acting. Fussy, Crying, and didn't know why they felt that way. Their daddy came through the door and it seemed like it got worse. I think it's because they wanted his attention.

I got to leave the house for a little while. We took to kids down the road and ate supper with my in-laws. Home made lasagna, My mother in law is the best at that. One day I am actually going to get her recipie from her.

It's 11:42pm I just got home and didn't get my before bed routine (BBR) done, but it's ok i'm not going to stress about it. I am going to bed with the knowledge that I can start again tomorrow. Starting with making the bed, and showering to shoes(shower and get dress all the way to my lace up tennis shoes). I know I can get this house CHAOS free. I just hope that I don't let myself feel overwhelmed like I did today. I need to remember to breathe and drink my water and just do it. "Put on your big girl panties" and the FLYlady would say. I am going to just do it. It takes more energy to look at the problem and complain than it does to get up and do something about it. I have to remember that being a mom of a toddler who is testing boundries and a 5 year old (will be 5 in september) who is testing boundries can be hard. Women do it by themselves all the time. I have a husband who is here to help. well he helps sometimes. He can add to the problem too... sometimes too. At least he is here and not somewhere chasing women. He is a good man and I have a good family. I have remind myself that everyday stress should not let me for get that. GOD gave me this family, he made my husband just for me to find and he knows what he's doing. Sometimes you just have to let go and let GOD

Kaci's Room

I thought this was going to take forever to get clean. It started as going through Kaci's clothes to get rid of doesn't fit anymore. It turned out to be overwhelming because I tried to do to much at one time. Then it progressed to aggrivation because it stayed this way for months. IT IS THE BABY'S ROOM! It shouldn't look this way, but it did. I spent more time and energy complaining and being aggrivated with her room than doing anything with it. Kaci couldn't play in there because I was afraid she would get hurt.

It took about 2 hours to get it to look this way. Like I said it took more energy complaining and be aggrivated about this room than it did to actually clean it. Now Kaci can go in there when she wants and play. She loves it. She can also get out of the bed when she needs to also. It is about time cause she was starting to try to climb out of the crib. This room showed me that FLYlady was right. I just need to get up and do it. "You can do anything for 15 minutes." It got clean 15 minutes at a time and I didn't feel overwhelmed or tired when I was done. I felt accomplished instead.

The Kitcen

The Kitchen is the most important room in the house. At least I think so anyway. As goes the Kitchen goes the rest of the house. FLYlady says it all starts with a shiny sink, and she's right! When you get up in the morning and get you Morning Routine out of the way. You walk into the Kitchen and the sink is clean and shining you it will make you smile. It's always good to start your day with a smile.







So my Kitchen wasn't so bad when I took the picture, but I have had it where ever dish in the house was dirty and they were all on the Counters. I will never have it that bad again. I would rather it not be this messy either. I am learning slowly though.


















I'd rather my kitchen look clean like this all the time. I know it's unrealistic. I make sure it looks like this periodically throughout the day though. It's simple PUPA(pick up and put away) after every meal. Load the Dishwasher at night and unload it in the morning, so that you will have somewhere to put your dirty dishes. You would be surprised how easy it really is. I have found myself happier with a cleaner home. It still has a long way to go.




I wanted to remind myself that this blog is not only for cleaning it is for everything else too. Don't for get to add feeling and life to your blog.

Guest Bath Accomplishments

My guest bathroom was a mess of it's own. My kids use this bathroom because they are to small to use the jack and jill bathroom between their rooms. I thought it was just going to stay like this cause it seemed so pointless to get it cleaned up. The kids will just destroy it again. I was overwhelmed and said forget it. I didn't want anyone to go in there. It was a classic case of CHAOS.











After about 30 minutes of cleaning they bathroom looks like this. I love this, It doesn't even look like the same bathroom. It took more energy to complain about it than it did to actually get in there and clean it up.