Being Discouraged

I figured out what being discouraged really felt like today. From the time I got up this morning I felt like all the work I have been doing was pointless. Especially when I actually paid attention to the Kitchen. I have to start all over in that room. Starting with shining the sink, I unloaded and loaded the dishwasher. That's about as far as I had gotten today. The Kids Didn't get to see their daddy yesterday and all day today. I think that had something to do with they way they were acting. Fussy, Crying, and didn't know why they felt that way. Their daddy came through the door and it seemed like it got worse. I think it's because they wanted his attention.

I got to leave the house for a little while. We took to kids down the road and ate supper with my in-laws. Home made lasagna, My mother in law is the best at that. One day I am actually going to get her recipie from her.

It's 11:42pm I just got home and didn't get my before bed routine (BBR) done, but it's ok i'm not going to stress about it. I am going to bed with the knowledge that I can start again tomorrow. Starting with making the bed, and showering to shoes(shower and get dress all the way to my lace up tennis shoes). I know I can get this house CHAOS free. I just hope that I don't let myself feel overwhelmed like I did today. I need to remember to breathe and drink my water and just do it. "Put on your big girl panties" and the FLYlady would say. I am going to just do it. It takes more energy to look at the problem and complain than it does to get up and do something about it. I have to remember that being a mom of a toddler who is testing boundries and a 5 year old (will be 5 in september) who is testing boundries can be hard. Women do it by themselves all the time. I have a husband who is here to help. well he helps sometimes. He can add to the problem too... sometimes too. At least he is here and not somewhere chasing women. He is a good man and I have a good family. I have remind myself that everyday stress should not let me for get that. GOD gave me this family, he made my husband just for me to find and he knows what he's doing. Sometimes you just have to let go and let GOD